Competition
That night I laid awake in bed reliving the experience. More than anything, I was frustrated with my emotions. My competitive nature, my dreams, my goals, all of it conspired to make myself feel hurt and to not join in the accomplishments of a friend. I had felt a natural and human response, but deep down I knew it was not the response that I needed to feel. A success for my friend is a success for the entire writing community – my local writing community.
New Beginnings Do Not Mean Starting Over
I started from the beginning last month – a blank Google Doc on my screen and the outline of a new story perched next to my steaming coffee. And then I wrote. With each clacking keyboard stroke I felt lighter, freer. You see, back in April I decided that I would finish my first novel and immediately begin a second one. If you’ve read my post It’s Time to Move Forward, you’ll understand the frustrations that drove me to begin my second book. I made a goal. I accomplished the goal, and now I am beginning something new, but it would be a mistake to say that I am starting over.